Saturday, June 25, 2011

A new state of mind

It's possible, if not encouraged, to take life a little lighter than you would normally. I'm a pretty serious guy much of the time, but whenever the opportunity presents itself, I'm the first one to crack a joke. To make myself look like a fool. Why? Because it makes other people happy. Laughter is an experience that has health benefits, social benefits, and even provides a mental boost.

So yeah, life isn't all fun and games. As long as you keep a firm head on your shoulders, though, lighten up! Be the sassy gay boy for a day even if you're the straightest guy in town. Dress up in drag, prank someone! Make someone close to you smile.

You'll soon find yourself smiling a lot more often than you used to.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Scandals and the Scandalous

Eliot Spitzer - 54th governor of New York. Caught involved in a high-end prostitution ring in late 2008, which caused him to resign in disgrace.

Rod Blagojevich - 40th governor of Illinois. Caught trying to sell the senate seat vacated by then-senator Barack Obama upon his inaguration as president. Arrested and impeached from office.

Mark Sanford - 115th governor of South Carolina. Disappeared from the public, including his wife and State Law Enforcement (tasked with ensuring his safety) to pursue an extramarital affair with a woman known only as "Maria." His wife divorced him, and impeachment proceedings were conducted but never finalized. Was allowed to complete his term as governor.

Bill Clinton - 42nd president of the United States. Impeached by the House of Representatives for obstruction of justice concerning his extramarital affair with Monica Lewinsky. The impeachment was not ratified by the senate.

Charles B. Rangel - Member of the U.S. House of Representatives from the 15th district of New York. CENSURED by the house for tax evasion, misappropriation of public funds, renting Harlem apartments at below-market rates, and failing to give full disclosure on his assets and income. 


And now we have Anthony Weiner, House Representative for the 9th district of New York. Caught sending lewd photos to a 21 year old woman (himself 46 years old) via his twitter account. Many are calling for his resignation. Why? Because he is a married man. Married, in fact, to a longtime aide to Hillary Clinton; Huma Abedin.


This media frenzy over political scandals is, in my opinion, dumb. If a politician makes a slip-up in his personal life, then let it stay a private matter. If that same politician misuses public funds and resources, however, then they have no business as our chief executives and legislators. Weiner, as far as we know, hasn't done anything truly against the public. Neither did Clinton, and - arguably - neither did Eliot Spitzer. 


Charlie Rangel, Rod Blagojevich and Sanford DID. They used public funds for private matters, and for that, they well deserved the scandal and controversy they invoked. I would even argue that they deserved worse; Rangel had been dodging his taxes for YEARS, yet he still sits in the House like nothing happened! Sanford completed his term in office without actually being impeached. I won't pass judgement on that case, because his financial misdeeds were comparatively small. Blagojevich was the ONLY politician on this list who got the full brunt of the law thrown at him. And for good reason! He had tried to turn politics into a business affair for his personal benefit. 


It's high time the public starts looking at real numbers. Real transgressions. If a politician misuses your money, then he has a right to be punished. Otherwise, hold your judgement on petty misdeeds such as nude texting. I'd wager some portion of the U.S. population is guilty of exactly what HE did.

Friday, June 3, 2011

A potentially groundbreaking idea

The Higgs boson, as I understand it, is THE elementary particle from which all other particles are formed. They were present during the beginning of the big bang, and it is THEIR existence, their unique compositions and iterations, that form all matter, antimatter, and what have you in the universe.

A quantum, as I understand it, is the smallest amount of energy required to make fundamental particles interact. According to the standard model, quanta are responsible for all motion and movement in the universe. We KNOW that all matter is in motion, all the time - just at varying magnitudes. The only time that the universe wasn't in motion was before the big bang; when everything was as its zero point.

So what caused the big bang? Theoretically, a single quantum could have done it, like a domino effect. What set that quantum (or those quanta) in motion? This is pure speculation, mind you, but I think that if we can figure out what CAUSES quantum mechanics, then we've solved the question - how did we get here? What set the universe in motion?

Physics is SO much fun to think about =)

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I am SO not an anarchist anymore

Money isn’t evil, people are evil
If you have money, you have the capacity to either be good or evil
If you are broke, the same applies

If you are looking for an escape, then take it
Shape your life however you see fit
But do NOT blame your problems on the rich

You’d be surprised how similar you and they are

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Reise, Reise

Cold walls loom over me
muffled sounds come from the radiator and computer
artificial light casts a harsh glow
on the fact that I am completely, utterly, alone.

Fear. Not of the known,
not of the unknown.
But of the fate of one who is cut off from his fellow man.

Why do you avoid me?
Have I done you wrong?
No. Our lives are simply too tangential.
You must deal with your struggles, your hopes, your ambitions
While I contend with mine
Maybe someday i'll look up from my workbench, and you'll look up from yours
and we'll marvel at the beauty of what the other has created.

Until that happens,
I will press on with my existential struggle.
Truth be told, I LOVE running on this hamster wheel that is my life.
Why?
Because it distracts me from the fact that I have no one.

Be thankful for what you have.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Apologies

I am neither mature, nor wise. I allow my emotions to take precedence over reason, and as such, my relationships with others have recently been under strain. I now know why I acted as I did, and I know exactly what it takes to change those behaviors. It's surprisingly simple - requiring only a slight change of mindset.

Separation anxiety, secrecy, conditional love and commitment.A need for control and sense of dependancy on others. The mistaken belief that a relationship takes precedence over personal development. These are third-dimensional concepts and paradigms that cause us nothing but physical and psychological pain.

Total honesty and openness with others. Unconditional love, and allowing others to explore themselves. Complete trust in others, and recognizing one's own self-sufficiency and personal development. These are fourth-dimensional constants. They are what the higher beings live by on a daily basis. They are what I seek to embody,
and what - in time - I hope to impart with you all.

To everyone I have loved; past, present and future. I am growing, as are you.
Never stop growing.

http://iasos.com/metaphys/3d-4d/#top

for further reading

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Oneness

I looked, for years, for ways with which I could meld myself with the universe. With everyone around me - both nearby and far away. I sought it in individual people, and I sought it in groups of people. I sought it in music and I sought it in physical activity. I sought it in video games, and - shamefully - I have sought it in mind-altering drugs.

Then, out of nowhere, I found it. It doesn't come from WHAT you do; it comes from who you're with and what you're doing with them. Oneness isn't the same thing as happiness - oneness is the serenity to accept yourself for who you are, and to accept others for who THEY are.

I found oneness in the strobe-lit center of a mosh pit. Giant, muscled men pushing and shoving each other - with me doing the same - to the rhythm of the music being played onstage. The frontman and musicians looking on in approval. The cameraderie and the willingness to stop all hostilities when someone actually gets hurt, to help them up and make sure that they're okay. The keen sense of brotherhood that is felt after the concert, looking at the people you were shoving just minutes ago, and grinning at them wearily as they grin right back at you.

How about that? I found Zen in a mosh pit.